Many people have traveled by this well on their journeys through life, but either didn’t notice it, decided not to check it out, or tried it but left for some reason. It doesn’t appear that the well has been used in a long time. You are not even sure if the water is good. The top of the water looks unappetizing . . . . disgusting actually – covered in dust, dirt, germs, bugs and grime. Who would even want to use this well or drink its water? You dip your finger in to just taste it anyways as you realize how thirsty you are, but you only taste the stuff on top. Yuck. You’re not drinking that! But your thirst remains.
You decide to move on. . . . to find something more appealing . . . more appetizing . . . more eye-catching and tasty. You heard there was something better down the road. So you turn your back to the well and head off.
I urge you to come back.
Things are not always what they seem.
There is more to this well than the casual observer and wanderer will ever know.
Let me help you draw up the DEEP water from the well. That is where the best water resides – where the cooler, refreshing, life-giving water is. It is not tainted by the dirt, dust, germs or bugs on top of the water. Nothing has touched this deep water except the bucket and cisterns that are allowed to draw deep into it.
Are you that kind of cistern or vessel?
Are you ready to go deep?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Sometimes you come across blogs or websites that you like - but wonder - who is this person writing all this really?
Well - there's no secrets here! Satan likes to keep us in bondage through our secrets - and I, for one, am fed up with it! I am loving the freedom that Christ died on the cross to give me -and I want more of it! I know that God LOVES to take what the enemy meant for evil, and use it for good - to change lives, to set people free, to minister to our broken hearts,and more!
You've got to read my other post called "Redesigning your Shackles and Chains"! You will see your past and the chains that have held you captive in a new light! You'll be ready to fight for your freedom and live in it!!
Drink a little deeper today!
May 20th, 2009 – MOPS Tea and Testimony day
Some of you have known me for years, and others of you I’ve just met. Either way – I have some questions for you. What do you see when you look at me? What kind of person do you think I am? Shy or Outgoing? Introverted or Extroverted? Fearful and a worrier, or a strong woman of faith? . . . . What characteristics or adjectives would you use to describe me – right now – as I am now?
I have to be honest with you and tell you . . . I don’t have it all together and I’m not perfect! :) I know . . . I know . . . I’m sorry to let you down. :)
I have to be honest about something else too. I know that none of you are perfect either. :)
I’ve never been perfect. Shocking, I know. :) (well – my mom and dad might have thought I was perfect when I was born . . . till I kept them up all night crying and pooping and wanting to eat!)
Actually, while we are alive on this earth – you and I will never be perfect! So why do we strive so hard to try and attain it? Why be a perfectionist? It’s unattainable. . . . at least while we are alive. As Christians, when we finally say goodbye to this earth and our mortal bodies, we will finally attain the perfection that is promised to us. But not until then.
However, that doesn’t mean we have the freedom to just do what we want and live haphazardly – throwing caution to the wind and living in sin (because “what’s the use in trying?” if we can’t attain it?). No. Paul tells us in 2 Corinthians 13:11 –“... Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.”
But it’s not by our might that we will attain perfection. It’s only through the Perfect One – Jesus – and the grace and mercy He gives that we will ever be made perfect.
I know that many of you, like myself, have struggled with this lack of perfection in your life – not sure if you are doing everything right as a wife, as a mom, as a friend, sister, daughter, etc. You have issues from your past that have repeatedly whispered to you – reminding you of your imperfection and your inability to attain that perfection. “You’ll never be good enough. Look at what you’ve done. You’ll never be as good as her. . . .” We constantly compare ourselves to others – thinking that they are much closer to that perfection that we are striving for.
But let me clue you in on another secret. . . .
Most of the people we look at and think “man – they’ve got it all together. They never had an issue in their life. I wish my life was like theirs” . . . many of them are where they are in life BECAUSE of the issues and trials they have gone through and the imperfections they have worked through in their lives.
James 1:2-4 are some of my favorite verses (in fact – I love the whole book of James!). . . . ones that we all need to not just read – but really live by – to believe and put into practice (as James even talks about later in his book).
“Consider it torture my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds? (whine and complain when it gets rough?”) Is that what it says? No . . . It says – “Consider it pure JOY, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, NOT lacking anything.”
Verses 5 - 8 go on to say –
“If any of you lacks wisdom (ME!), he should ask God, who gives generously to (Just me? . . . . No . . to ) ALL without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.”
I started off telling you all this today because - I am who I am today because of the trials I’ve been through (not necessarily the easy times in life). I am who I am today because of the temptations I gave into and the victories the Lord gave me over those sins. I am who I am today because not only did Jesus save me – but I decided to take hold of what God promises me in the Bible – and to put it into practice! These aren’t just words to tickle our ears – but they are life-giving, transforming power to mold and shape us into the strong, Godly women, mothers, friends, sisters, and children that God wants us to be!
I grew up in a Christian home as a Pastor’s kid – the oldest of 4 kids. For most of my early years of life I was very sheltered and protected – living in a small town (less than 1900 people!) in Minnesota for 7 years, and then 2 years in Florida – where I attended a Christian school. We moved here when I was 15 and I was so naïve and shy. I had always been shy and unsure of myself. I even wrote a song once about knowing everyone by their feet – because I really did. My head was always down – sometimes looking for “treasures” (money, rocks, etc) – but in school – it was because I was shy. My parents were very loving and would “force” me to do things that they knew I would enjoy, even though I was deathly afraid (like going to camp where I didn’t know anyone, etc). I was so thankful they did that for me (and that God still does that to me!)!
I was afraid to speak my mind – even when it came to what I wanted for Christmas, sometimes. I was always second guessing myself – telling myself that it was too selfish to ask for certain things (because it would cost too much . . . we had 4 kids in the family, etc). But then I would get my feelings hurt when I saw my sister getting everything she asked for because she wasn’t afraid to ask. I was afraid that my opinion was stupid or didn’t really matter, afraid that people would laugh or make fun of me, etc. I was (and still am) very mercy-oriented, and always seemed to latch onto the underdogs, the hurting and the needy. I felt people’s pain, and took it on as my own. I was a very sensitive child and was hurt and disappointed easily and had some relationship issues with my dad that definitely affected me.
When we moved here, I went to public school. It was a shock to me and everything I had been used to coming from a Christian school. There were 2000 people in my Jr. High (more that my whole town in MN)! I wasn’t used to the cussing, the rudeness, the lack of love, the drugs and drinking, etc. However, I still had a heart for these hurting kids. One morning while waiting at the bus stop, a girl was telling me her problems with her boyfriend. My heart went out to her, but I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t really understand it all, and that broke my heart. I didn’t know how to help her. I got on the bus and looked out the window while I prayed “Lord – I really want to help these people – but I just don’t relate to them. I don’t understand what they are going through. Please help me to understand.”
That’s not the kind of prayer you want to pray casually! It’s kind of like praying for patience! It’s not just given to you!
From that day on – things changed. My life didn’t fall apart overnight, and I know the Lord didn’t make things happen or cause me to sin or fall into temptations. They were all my own choices. But through a series of experiences and situations – I definitely got “real life” training on how to relate to these kids in the world around me.
I spent a good portion of my 10th grade year very depressed and suicidal. Over the next couple years, I got somewhat involved in drinking and tried smoking for awhile (but decided, out of vanity – to quit because I didn’t want to ruin my “beautiful singing voice”! J). I did manage to stay away from drugs (mainly because of this one kid that always called me when he was high and telling me “man Lori – you’re so lucky . . .you have a dad who loves you!”. He just always sounded stupid on the phone and I, again out of vanity, (God will use anything!) didn’t want to kill my smart brain cells! . . . though – somehow that thinking didn’t translate over into drinking and other destructive behaviors too. Hmmm . . ).
I slowly continued down a path of discovery and self-destructive behaviors. This path wasn’t fueled by rebellion as much as it was really just a young, insecure girl looking for love and acceptance and willing to try new things. Yes, rebellion was there, but I just really wanted to feel loved and accepted more than anything (don’t we all?!). Shortly after high school, my boyfriend and I broke up for the last time. We had dated off and on for 4 years – he was my first real love, and we thought we would marry one day. That wasn’t the case. The relationship was over – but there never was really any closure to it. Because of where I was at in my life at that time (spiritually & emotionally - living a rebellious life and feeling unloved) – it just did me in and I totally gave up on life. I didn’t care what happened to me, to my body, to my life – everything. I was very good at lying (to the point I actually didn’t think there was anything wrong with what I was saying and I think I lied more than told the truth) – thus I lived a double life – a good little pastor’s kid in front of my parents and the church, but a different person internally, at work and around my “friends”. The lies and double life were killing me. Mentally I was a sliver away from heading down the path of alcoholism, and I had come to a place where I understood how someone ends up as a prostitute or living a very promiscuous life. I had so much self-hatred, low self-esteem, low self-worth, and lack of hope in my life, that I really didn’t care what happened to me, what someone did to me, and I just wanted to drown my misery away.
But . . . Even though I didn’t care . . . God did care! And He had a plan! Amazingly, He was still watching over me and had His hand on me.
Even though I was living a rebellious life, God still, somehow managed to convince me (more like – bombarded me with people all telling me the same thing!) to sign up to go to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) and do a 6 month DTS (Discipleship Training school) in Lausanne, Switzerland. Actually – I was just looking forward to escaping all my problems here and going to Europe and finding some great places to party and meet some cute boys! J That was MY plan. But . . . God had other plans!
When I was 18 and at the bottom of the pit – sliding towards what felt like Hell – I went to work one day. A quiet chef at the restaurant where I worked said hi and asked me how I was doing. I barely looked at him and said “You don’t want to know”. He continued talking to me and said “I do know Lori” and then he proceeded to tell me everything that I was struggling with and involved with that I didn’t think anyone knew about (including my involvement with a married man at that time). He then said something that opened my eyes and gave me hope – “Lori, the Lord must have some awesome plans for your life if the devil is working so hard to mess it up!” And that was all he said.
I walked away stunned. I couldn’t believe it. It was an epiphany to me. What? This wasn’t all my fault? I wasn’t so bad and such a total loser after all? I wasn’t too damaged beyond repair? Maybe God really does have something good for me. Maybe. . . . But . . . I was still just going to Europe to party. I’m not so sure about all this God stuff and living with a bunch of Christians – especially in an intense Christian “greenhouse” environment. We’ll see.
So, I left for Switzerland around Jan 1st or 2nd, 1990. But within 2 weeks - By Jan 16th – God had gotten hold of me! I was filled with the Holy Spirit and set free from so many things! I was happy, alive, free, and drunk in the love of the Lord! (and waking up happy without a hangover too!) I was a totally different girl! Many of my parent’s prayers were answered! I attribute much of my short stint in that pit of Hell to the prayers of my parents constantly being ushered up for me during my whole life! I know that is one of the main reasons I didn’t slide further down and away – and why I am still alive today! (So moms – PRAY for your kids!! It’s fighting battles in the spiritual world that we may never know about or see!)
At the end of my DTS, most everyone agreed that I had the most dramatic change in the first month from when I came. God literally saved my life – not just spiritually – but physically, mentally, emotionally, and in all ways!
That doesn’t mean I went on to live a perfect life. Not by any means. I still struggled with many of the same issues when I came back from YWAM (and even on my DTS some) – but God was and is still refining me – every day – every month – every year. I kept (and keep) holding onto the verses in Jeremiah 29:11-14a – “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.”
Isn’t that an awesome promise?!
In YWAM, on a walk in the woods one day, God asked me, “What do you want Lori? You can have anything.” Of course – money always pops into my head. (I did always like money!) But - We had just had a wonderful woman speaker – Reona Joli – talk about her amazing adventures in faith – and I was so impressed by her strong faith – her unwavering faith – no fear – total reliance and dependence on God and His promises to her – even in the midst of danger! THAT’S what I wanted. I was tired of being so shy and unsure of myself. I was tired of not being able to fully speak my mind. I was tired of worrying about things. I wanted to be like that woman – a woman of faith. So that’s what I asked for.
And that’s what I got! J Again – watch out what you ask for! It didn’t happen overnight – but it’s been a process – a developing of perseverance – so that I may “be mature and complete – not lacking anything” as James says. I’ll be in this process my whole life. But the peace that has come, over the years, as I have trusted in the Lord and His words and promises to me – is something I would never want to lose! I can’t imagine living life without that peace! It didn’t come easy. I had many experiences that have truly tested my faith. But by “choosing” to believe in God (and not myself, my husband, my job, my circumstances, or even my feelings) – and allowing God the opportunity to “come through” and hold up His end of the deal – my faith has grown tremendously.
The last few years it seems like He’s been doing so much more in and through me– and I’ve been learning and grasping more and more of Him every day. I think I was too complacent for many years when I came back from YWAM. I kind of pulled back from God for a couple reasons – One was - that I didn’t know how to live in this world with the same passion and giftings that I had in YWAM in the midst of all the struggles and temptations here. And the secondly – I thought God was mad at me and couldn’t use me anymore (or for quite awhile) for some things I had done. I thought I had let Him down and wasn’t worthy anymore. But I’ve been learning over the last 8 years that that’s not true at all. God LOVES to use the unworthy! Look at who He used in the Bible – David (and adulterer and murderer – but he was “a man after God’s heart”), a donkey (how worthy is a donkey?), Paul (who was Saul and persecuted Christians), Moses (who was unsure about his speaking abilities and was a murderer), etc.
I am totally enjoying the journey God has me on now and I’m looking forward to what God has for me in the future with great anticipation and excitement!
So – this strong, woman of faith that you see today (or the bundle of mess you may see too) – is who I am . . . because of what I’ve been through, what God has done (and is still doing) in me, and what I have chosen to grasp hold of (and to ask for) and then put into practice!
I don’t even recognize the person I was in high school and college. I don’t even recognize the person I was 5-10 years ago. And I hope that in 5-10 years, I still don’t want to recognize this person now!
If you asked me what verse represents my life – where I came from and where I am now – it is Psalm 40:1-3
“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.”
Isn’t that awesome? He can take you and me out of the pit – clean us off and put us on a solid place to stand. And because of it all . . . others will “see . . . and put their trust in the Lord.” It’s by seeing where we have come from and what He has done - that they are led to Christ! How awesome is that?! God can use our JUNK for His glory and to bring others to salvation!
I love the Lord with all that is in me, because He saved me from all that was in me! I love much because I have been forgiven much. And I am continually being forgiven much!
I am not perfect. I know you are not perfect. God knows we are not perfect. And the enemy knows we are not perfect – yet he likes to try and rub it in our face! And yet, the amazing thing is . . . . God still loves us UNCONDITIONALLY!! (Just like we love our kids – even though we know they are not perfect! J ) And if we let Him, He is able to take our imperfections and refine us into something beautiful! Not just for Him to look at – but for others to see and to draw them to Him!
That’s all I want to be. A beautiful conduit for the Lord and His glory, power and love!
That’s it! That’s me! :)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
It is at the core of what God wants to say to each and every one of you! It is what this blog is all about as well . . . . helping you all to realize and grab hold of the abundant life that Christ died to give you!! I know you want it! So read this whole article that was posted on ElijahList today. Read it - and pray the prayer at the end . . . OUT LOUD! :) And then start living it . . . change your thinking . . . dig those wells back up and get to the deep pure water and drink it (I'm not the only one saying this to you! Read below!). . . . get into God's word and PUT IT INTO PRACTICE - just as James says in 1:22-25 -
"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in the mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man that looks intenly into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it - he will be blessed in what he does."
Dig and drink deeper today!
It was a very short dream. As I woke up, I vividly remembered what I had seen. I was standing looking at someone. Was it the Lord? A voice said to me, "Your blood pressure is 197." I replied, "But I am not under stress." The voice responded, "It is about your thinking." I had absolutely no clarity about what that meant!
Over the next weeks, the dream often came back to my memory and I would ask those I was with, "Do you know what the dream means?" No satisfying answer came.
In October 2008, I made my third ministry trip to Australia. We were hosted by a church outside of the city of Sydney and enjoyed a wonderful two weeks of schools. This time, again, I was surprised by what transpired! Sudden impressions starting coming...
Before the school, the Lord had taught me how to stand behind a person and feel the "timeline" of the person. As I felt closer to the person's back, I could feel events early in their generational line; the further back away from the person I was, I felt further back in their generational line. There was a point behind them that I could actually feel a marked change and I realized that I was discerning the glory of the Lord and eternity; since that time, many others have confirmed that they could also feel the strong anointing of the presence of the Lord. New revelation was coming.
As I stood close to this point of eternity, I was able to discern the egg and sperm that formed the person. I could then feel the zygote, the first split into two cells and the split into four cells. Just after the feeling of "eternity," I discerned a scroll, which seemed to be the scroll written for the birthright of that person. I could also feel many spiritual beings assigned to the person. Just after the second split, I was surprised at the evil that I felt. It seemed to be some type of gate. As I discerned the gate, I asked others to describe what they saw. There was confirmation that evil had been inserted into the person's life just after conception. As we sought the Lord about this, we felt Him say that this was the insertion of the generational evil from the family line. Was I discerning "original sin"? Then I remembered my dream.
"It Is About Your Thinking"
"It is about your thinking." What thinking? My blood pressure was 197. Was there a key here? Revelation came. I thought, "Look up Job 19:7."
"If I cry out concerning wrong, I am not heard.
If I cry aloud, there is no justice."
Was this a clue? Then I thought, "Look up Psalm 19:7."
"The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul;
the testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple;"
There it was! It is all about our thinking. What is our perspective of God? Generally, the world blames Him for all the difficulties of life. Supposedly, He is the source of all the evil in the world. "Why doesn't He intervene in my life? He is all powerful! Where is He when life goes bad? Why doesn't He help me in my need? In fact, maybe He is the one who is doing all this against me because I deserve it. But, what have I done to cause Him to hate me so much?" So, on and on our thinking goes.
We listen to others complain about God and we enter into agreement with them. Our pain is immense and we must find someone to blame. It must be God who is doing all this against me! It is a mindset established generations ago; in fact, a mindset originating in the Garden of Eden. The root is not in the Tree of Life, but in the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. We have "bought into" the wrong mindset! We have believed the lie that God is not good! Our presuppositions are all wrong. Our belief systems have been based on a lie! It is all about our thinking!
This is Where to Start: "He Is Good!"
Job had suffered much! Agony had overpowered him. The pain was immense. Who did he blame? Is God to be blamed for all the evil that has happened? No! It is my thinking that is all wrong. Second Chronicles 5:13 gives us the correct starting place for our thinking. This is the prerequisite to all that we believe. "...they lifted up their voice with the trumpets and cymbals and instruments of music, and praised the LORD, saying: 'For He is good, for His mercy endures forever.'" This is where I start! He is Good! If that is true, then the blame must go elsewhere. This is where the thinking must be corrected. It is the enemy that has deceived us into believing the lie about Who God is. It is our perverted thinking, mindset, and belief systems that have caused us to have an incorrect view of God.
During the last several years the Lord has told us, "Go back to the origin." What does that mean? The origin is the Garden of Eden. It is the place where the incorrect thinking originated. The Fall was never the Lord's intent. We have chosen the wrong way, the incorrect path. We have taken a wrong turn and gone our own way. We must go back to the origin. How? The death of Jesus Christ on the Cross has provided the only way.
Through His Blood shed on the Cross, we have the provision through acceptance in that sacrifice to return to the ancient path. "Thus says the LORD: 'Stand in the ways and see, and ask for the old paths, where the good way is, and walk in it; then you will find rest for your souls.'" We must take back the land, our birthright, given away to the enemy. We must come against the strongholds in the land of our inheritance and take back what the enemy has stolen.
"Return to the Ancient Pathways"
During the Sydney school, many words were received from the Lord that helped establish the foundation for this prayer. These words will be helpful in allowing you to understand the importance of this prayer.
Raylene about Australia: Right now, I feel very powerful angels all around you and us. One of them is saying: "This trip is very different than the others, Paul. Look for the differences; there will be many. They are the keys to the new path, the path in where you are to walk. I will show you the way. On this path, there is newness, more vision, more understanding, and deeper things. You will be outfitted for the warfare ahead. The battle rages, but you have the keys! We have been waiting for this time. We have been sent to help you find the path. Victorious victory! This is the time! Victory."
Andrew: "Courage, courage My son, for the times and the seasons will begin to unfold as My glory rises up from the well. You must yet mine the wells and you must get deep wells. In fact, all of you must have your wells dug. You must want the excavating work of the Spirit in your life, for at the bottom of the well there is a scroll and a path that goes deeper. Even as you would mine that well and beyond, there is another corridor and ancient path. My people have not walked this path before. You are traveling on holy ground. The ground below must be taken by you. Redeem the land."
Mimi: "Craft a prayer to set My people free. Craft a prayer to go through the grate, for the Lord is your head. The Lord goes before you. Change man's birthright for Australia. Establish God's birthright for this land, this people, for all future generations. The land was set to be desolate and forsaken. That is not My heart and not My will. Establish My will and My purpose for Australia. Call down the Kingdom for the will of God to be done."
Sally: "This is not a new plan. This plan has been on My heart since the foundation of the world. The passage of time has been moving toward this since the beginning of history. Carefully, I have placed each piece in place and I have built one thing upon another, for nothing is by accident, and I have called My people to pray. It is the prayers of My faithful ones that have laid the foundation. The ancient pathways are flowing with water. There are streams of living water following the ancient pathways. The river of God is flowing underground in the depths of the earth waiting to bubble up, bringing fresh life. The ancient pathways are pure. They carry pure water. Drink deeply of this water, the River of God that flows from My throne bringing life to everything it touches. Drink deeply from this well. Dig the wells to release the water."
Mimi: "Put on your full armor. You need protective gear to dig your wells. I will take you to areas you have never been before. You have gone up, and now you have to go down, down to the depths where you were secretly made. Go back in time to conception where you were intricately made and formed. Go there and retrieve. Retrieve what is yours; and I give you the secrets, the mysteries which are hidden in the depths. But, you must be fully armed and armored because it is a dark place, but I go with you."
Craig: "The fire must flow from the ancient pathways. Burn away to clear the chaff. The walls will crumble, and the way will be made new that My people may walk on the words of life, that they may see the glory of My sun as it rises about the land; that they may take My hand and walk with Me in the cool of day, in the rising of the sun and the coming moon.
"They will bow once again to Me, and the ground will cry out, Holy, Holy, Holy am I. All My ways are great. Who would question Me on the designs of My creation? Who will tell Me where to go and where to rest and where to rise and where to fall? For, I am the Lord; My word is forever, and I hold all things together.
"The very fabric of My thoughts, I have fashioned together that you might know Me and know yourself; that you might know love and walk without fear; and that you might break down the prison walls that life will flow from them. I have heard their cries and will answer them today. I am making a way and cutting down the tree. Step over it and come to Me."
Mimi: "Dig up the ancient wells. The ancient wells were buried treasures of Heaven. Remove the evil mindsets over the ancient wells. The ancient wells were put in place and the ancient paths have been polluted and stopped up because I was rejected. The Word of God was rejected, so these ancient wells were stopped up. Go deep, deep, deep into the ancient wells, for that is where My Glory wants to bubble up, rise up and surface."
Bruce and Irene: "The mines are Mine. Great wealth is coming. It is not man's wealth; it is His provision, His treasure. The wealth is in the people. Go low; go low; prostrate yourself before Me. Seek; seek My light, My path. Only the humble will enter, but the righteous shall live by faith. Open the eyes of your spirit. Seek Me with all your heart."
Amybeth: "Since time began, My heart has yearned for those who would seek Me for these truths. My heart has yearned for the day that I might restore to My people the intimacy of My heart. I have wept for the obstacles that remain between My heart and My children, for I am indeed your Abba Father and I long to embrace you in a way you have never known and in a way you have never come. The ancient pathways will lead you to a secret place, a place of intimacy and joy and connection. My heart grieves for My children who, although they know Me, have been kept back from Me. Break through the grate by your words, wisdom and declarations that come from the throne of God. I send My witnesses. I send My authority. I send My Son, for the words that I send forth from this day will change the pathways. It is time."
It is time to change our thinking!
Prayer to Release into Abundant Life
I repent for myself and all those in my generational line who blamed God for wronging them.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line for blaming God for bringing them into shame by stripping them of their glory and removing their crown from their head.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who blamed God for surrounding them with His net, destroying them, and demolishing them on every side, thus destroying their hope.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who blamed God for being their enemy, and blamed God for being furious with them and sending troops against them, or troops to build up pathways to attack them, and to camp all around their bodies and dwelling places. I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line for blocking and walling up their way and plunging their path into darkness.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line for having a fearful and unbelieving heart that caused us to depart from the way of holiness. I ask for the restoration of the ancient path where gladness and joy overtake me. I embrace my birthright to walk knowing the Lord.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line for using ungodly wisdom where we have been operating out of futile mindsets trying to work things out by ourselves. I choose, Lord, to work out of Your knowledge of understanding, wisdom, and discernment. I choose to work with You, Lord, to change my ways so that I can walk the ancient paths established before the Fall. I choose to walk in Your healing and allow Your strength, which flows from your life-giving water.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who used their God-given physical and spiritual senses in ungodly ways and chose to operate only from their natural mind. Lord, please break off all the iniquity that flowed from those decisions to ignore Your mind, heart, and will. Lord, please remove all iniquity from my God-given senses.
I ask You, Lord, to restore my ability to use all of my senses to discern Your mind, heart and will.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who blamed God for removing friends, family, and employees from them and for turning people against them so that they are despised and hated to the point of death.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who blamed God's hand for striking them and persecuting them.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who wished that their accusations against God and their suffering could be recorded forever in stone.
Lord, I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line for not looking for Your path and Your ways. I repent for not being willing to walk on Your path and therefore finding no rest for my soul.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who believed that God was withholding good from them and believed that they could become like God, knowing good and evil.
I repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who rejected the law of the Lord and the testimony of His Spirit, departing from His wisdom and truth and entering the kingdom of their own soul.
I renounce and repent for myself and for those who relied on the knowledge of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. I repent for those who relied on their own thinking.
I renounce and repent for myself and for all those in my generational line who forsook the Lord, the Fountain of Living Water, and created for themselves broken cisterns that could hold no water.
I reject receiving by my ancestors and myself the seed of satan in our mind that began with the fall of man and believing the lie that we could become like God.
I renounce and repent for my ancestors and myself for rejecting our birthright of being children of the Most High God and relying upon Him.
I renounce and repent for my ancestors and myself for conceiving satan's evil seed, mischief, trouble, and the preparation of deception, which birthed iniquity and evil intent in our generational line.
Lord, please remove and seal the access the enemy gained in the womb to take us into ungodly heavenly places.
Lord, please remove and restore to me by the Blood of Jesus any elemental part of me, including my inheritance and birthright, that is trapped in the second heaven or heavenly places. Lord, please close the ungodly doors to the second heaven.
I repent for myself and all those in my family line who relied upon the natural wisdom of man and rejected the Spirit of God. I choose to rely on the precepts of truth and the Spirit of God to give me the mind of Christ to direct my mind on the righteous pathway.
I reject the wisdom of man, and I repent for the pride in my family line that saw the wisdom of God as foolishness. I declare that I will be born of the Spirit and of water through Jesus Christ who calls me justified and glorifies me. I declare this truth was established before the foundation of the earth and before the elemental spirits were created.
I claim my spiritual birthright of being conceived in love, of being given the Spirit of God who reveals wisdom to me, and of being given spiritual eyes in my heart to see the riches of His glorious inheritance. I claim that I am being formed in the image of His glorious Son. I reject the seed of satan and I reject my position as a child of the father of lies and murder. I ask You, Abba Father, to close the eyes that were open when Adam and Eve partook of the tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil.
I renounce and reject any ungodly rights or authorities that were given to the soul to direct my mind along ungodly pathways.
I agree with God's original plan that all spiritual wisdom of good and evil originates from God's throne and is revealed to my spirit. I agree that the Holy Spirit has permission to direct my spirit and to lead my soul and body. I receive the seed of the Holy Spirit into my spirit by which power I cry Abba, Father.
Lord, on behalf of myself and my family line, I repent for questioning God's Word and therefore inviting the influence of Leviathan, the king of pride, into my life.
Lord, I choose to be directed by Your commandments so that You might enlarge my heart.
I declare that my Redeemer lives, and while I am yet alive, I will see God for myself with my own eyes.
I declare that my hope is in You, my Redeemer. I ask You now to restore the ancient pathways to me and shine Your light on me so that I can see You with my eyes. I ask You to restore my stolen birthright back to me, my glory and my crown.
Father, I thank You that before You formed me in my mother's womb, You had pre-determined my birthright, the path of glory I should walk in.
On behalf of myself and my generational line, I repent for and renounce rejecting the truth that You formed my inmost being, and You wrote all the days pre-ordained for me in Your book before they came to be.
Father, on behalf of myself and my generational line I repent for and renounce rejecting the ancient path that You have chosen for me to walk in.
Father, on behalf of myself and my generational line, I repent for and renounce listening to and aligning my thinking with the wicked. Lord, I reject them and their pursuit of bloodlust.
Father, I declare that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that You will lead me in the way everlasting. I declare that all Your works are wonderful.
Lord, I agree with Your Word, which says that the weapons of my warfare are not carnal but mighty through You to the pulling down of strongholds. I choose to cast down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and I choose to bring into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.
Lord, would You release the resurrection power of the Holy Spirit to restore me to the path of holiness. Lord, please cause Your Perfect Love to run through my entire being, casting out all fear. I ask the Lord to repair or replace any part of my brain or neural pathway required to establish attachment with My Heavenly Father and fellow man.
Lord, would You cause me to dwell in the Secret Place of the Most High. I declare my birthright is to walk with Abba Father in the garden where I hear His voice and enjoy intimate fellowship with Him. I believe that Jesus Christ appropriated this intimacy for me when He ripped the veil in the Holy of Holies. Lord, I repent for my generational line that tried to earn by works that which You had given freely by grace. Lord, please now usher me into that place of rest and perfect peace.
Dr. Paul L. Cox
Scriptures to meditate on and study:
Job 19:6-26; Isaiah 35; Jeremiah 6:16; Psalm 19:7; Jeremiah 2:13; Job 15:35; 1 Corinthians 2:15; Ephesians 1:4; 1 Corinthians 2:10; Ephesians 1:8; John 8:44; Job 41:34; Psalm 119:32; Job 19:25-26; 2 Corinthians 10:4-6